Sucker for torture
Even though I’m on this whole “no yeast, no sugar, no gluten, no dairy, no food-resembling-real-food” schtick, I still like to bake. I still like to see people enjoying things I’ve made and so I bake for other people even though I can’t eat it. Okay, maybe I’m just buying friendship and love with food or looking for another form of affirmation, whatever, call it what you want. In the two weeks that I’ve been starving detoxing, I’ve made mini banana chocolate chip muffins, cinnamon biscuits and cookies and have not eaten any of it. It’s enough to put any woman over the edge. I haven’t even stuck my finger in the batter/dough for a little taste. Honest! Yet I insist on torturing myself and baking. I can’t help myself. Today I’m going to attempt to make real cinnamon buns. Real ooey, gooey, scrumptious, yeasty, icing-ey goodness (oh, yes, with cream cheese icing!!!).
I went grocery shopping yesterday and as I was unpacking my groceries Jer is watching. I pull out a small container and he’s like “what is that?”
“Yeast!” I answered.
His eyes bugged out of his head and his jaw drops, “YEAST? You are on a yeast cleanse and you buy YEAST?!? That, right there, is a little container of pure evil!”
Yeah well, you can’t have ooey, gooey, scrumptious, yeasty cinnamon buns without yeast!
You know, this time around I haven’t had any cravings. Weird. No “I must have chocolate or I will die!” episodes. No “You’re killing me by eating that ice cream in front of me” moments (oh, yes, people do that…Jer!). It’s been so easy. I don’t know why. Maybe It’s going to get harder, maybe it won’t. Whatever the case, I’m not feeling driven to eat anything I shouldn’t. We’ll see if I can say that later today when the hot cinnamon buns come out of the oven : )
Too bad I wasn’t closer… I’d pop by to snatch one. MMMM!!!
Comment by Carol Van Rooy — April 12, 2008 @ 12:27 pm
wow Erin
I couldnt do that
bake and not eat
what an incredible lady you are
just reading about what you have made makes my mouth water
stay commitmented
your wonderful
Jen
Comment by jen — April 12, 2008 @ 3:44 pm
Oh my…yes, I’d have huge trouble staying strong in the face of such temptation! Glad things are going so well for you!
Comment by Kimberly — April 12, 2008 @ 3:55 pm
You are a strong woman!! Good for you.
Comment by Jen H. — April 12, 2008 @ 5:00 pm
Good for you, Erin!! That’s so hard to not even have a taste! You’re a stronger woman than me!
Comment by staci — April 12, 2008 @ 6:17 pm
u r hardcore!
Comment by Ruth — April 12, 2008 @ 8:38 pm
I’m glad you’re doing so well. I think it’s amazing you can bake and not eat it yourself - wow, I’m impressed. I know I couldn’t do that.
Comment by Nadine — April 12, 2008 @ 8:39 pm
I am so glad that it is easier for you this time!
And ummm… ahem, my friendship has not been bought yet
jk - I should not be eating yeasty fattening baking anyways!
Comment by PamJ — April 12, 2008 @ 9:39 pm
You are one strong girl! I admire you for your willpower, even coming over for pizza you bring your own food while we all devour ours in front of you! Keep up the great work you look great, oh and don’t forget the butt clenches…Lol!
Comment by tara — April 12, 2008 @ 9:40 pm
Is that from the Marilu Henner book?
I did that once and felt AMAZING!!!!!
If it was easy to feed THREE kids that way - I would still be doing it.
Comment by Michelle — April 13, 2008 @ 2:02 am
you are a rock. I could never in a million years to that. I am too selfish when it comes to food!!
Comment by Denise — April 13, 2008 @ 5:25 pm
You are so funny. Way to go on your womanly no-holds-bar powers!
Comment by Val — April 14, 2008 @ 2:31 pm
So what do you eat?
p.s. I tagged ya, cause I’m most curious, and I’m nosy like that.
Comment by CuriosityKiller — April 15, 2008 @ 4:38 am
I’m so proud of you Erin! You’re an inspiration! How did the cinnamon buns turn out? You’ll have to teach me how to make them
Comment by Becky — April 15, 2008 @ 2:30 pm