Stir Crazy
I really, really, REALLY need spring to get it’s butt in gear and for the weather to start staying warm. I’m so tired of being in the house and I’m feeling a little mental. Too much time alone is not a good thing…and it’s amazing how you can still feel alone with 2 kids. Alone with my thoughts. Bored out of my skull. I keep thinking I should involve myself in a project or a pick up one of my 10 hobbies, but I just can’t seem to find any motivation to get into anything. It’s making me a bit of a crazy person to live with. I’m not feeling at all like myself. I pace. I wander. I seem to be in a desert looking for an oasis and I’m just not finding it. I do find mountains of unfolded laundry : )
Nothing is sparking any interest, which is weird for me. I’m trying to get back on my cleanse, at least for a while longer and all I can think of is the cheesecake in the fridge calling my name. See, I’m even hearing voices : )
I have 35 books that are waiting for me to read them. When I think of them sitting there, I get all excited, but the excitement fizzles out quickly as my mind wanders when I start reading. I think I have 4 or 5 books started. All of them good, I’m sure, just not keeping my attention.
I’m reading blogs, but having absolutely no words to comment with. My mind feels blank and I don’t know what to say. I’m tired of blogging about day to day occurrences. I don’t have my sense of humor the way I usually do. It feels like work to say anything and the things I’d like to say, I won’t.
All I can think of is sitting on my deck (which isn’t finished yet). In my new patio furniture (which is in the process of being assembled). Basking in the warm sun. Wishing I had plants to start taking care of. Or a garden maybe. Not in this house, though, unfortunately. Maybe I’m just a little Vitamin D deficient right now. Got me singing the blues.
Sorry for the downer of a post. I shouldn’t even be posting this ’cause I’m not looking for pity from anyone. I just have nothing else to say and this is me today. I’m not fully alive. I can’t say I’m really smiling, either. I’m hoping that the sun poking out of the clouds will help uplift my spirits. Maybe I’ll go for a walk and just be. Yeah, that sounds good.
I could’ve written this, Erin. I feel 100% the same way!
Comment by Kimberly — May 13, 2008 @ 7:53 pm
Erin…I pray that sun shine will light up your heart.
Comment by Nadine — May 13, 2008 @ 9:50 pm
I can relate, Erin! It’s supposed to be 20 tomorrow
Comment by Becky — May 13, 2008 @ 9:59 pm
huge hugs Erin
Comment by jen — May 14, 2008 @ 1:59 am
keep your eyes peeled for a special something that I hope will lift you out of this mood. It won’t be good for your cleanse though, sorry
Comment by Joanne at frutto della passione — May 14, 2008 @ 8:29 am
If you need a walking pal, you know where I am! And it is already beautiful today
(at least I am pretty sure, since I haven’t been out there yet!)
Comment by PamJ — May 14, 2008 @ 9:45 am
You, my dear, have a case of the “blahs”. Happens to the best of us.
Hope the walk will help you shake it. I tell people that I’m solar powered- I NEED sunshine or else I end up blah.
Fingers crossed that spring makes it your way soon!
Comment by Quirky — May 14, 2008 @ 11:04 am
*hugs*
A walk will do you good!
I hope the sun will come out soon for you. :o)
Comment by Denise — May 14, 2008 @ 11:08 am
I hear ya… this has been the longest start to spring I’ve ever seen…. blah!!!
Comment by Carol Van Rooy — May 14, 2008 @ 11:58 am
it seems you’re not the only one with a case of the duldrums. i’ve been feeling edgy and off for the last two or three days. not sure what it is, but something’s gotta give soon or i might have to find myself a therapist…
Comment by smtwngrl — May 14, 2008 @ 2:40 pm
Ummm funny how us woman feel the same at times. I felt the same way the last couple days…and it’s not me at ALL. I never sit still….but it came to me last night like a dream, I’m getting ready to start the dreaded FREDDY:) if you get what I’m saying! it’s just hitting me hard this month…maybe you to???
Comment by jennifer — May 14, 2008 @ 4:04 pm
hope your feeling more alive today friend. isn’t the sushine amazing? we’re enjoying it in the north end.
Comment by Ruth — May 14, 2008 @ 4:18 pm
Hope you feel better soon. We all get like this some times. It will pass.
Comment by Jo Beaufoix — May 15, 2008 @ 3:45 pm
I think we all go through things like this. Hope you are feeling better my friend.
Comment by Alexis — May 19, 2008 @ 8:59 pm