posted by erin on Jun 13
Okay, so I took my medication this morning and the rocking and humming have subsided to more of a facial twitch. In case you were all wondering what was going on in my head the other day, that post was just a cathartic way of releasing past hurts. Getting old feelings off my chest. I’m not going through any major crisis at the moment with friendships, but I recognize my tendencies and know that there are probably lots of people out there who have been hurt like that. I wasn’t going over the edge or anything.
I know, I know, I’m not usually that serious sounding, and y’all didn’t quite know what to do with it, did ya? I DO, however, appreciate all the loving and concerned emails and phone calls I received. Wow, am I loved! I have to say that it touched me so deeply to know that I have, in the last couple of years, built friendships and relationships with people who DO handle my heart with care and they are genuine and loving. It does my heart so much good to know that I have trusted my deepest, darkest secrets to some of you and I know that I am still unconditionally loved, come hell or high water. No matter what happens and what mistakes I’ve made or will make, I’ll still be accepted and cherished. That is a humbling feeling. So you passed the test. I’ll still be your friend…just kidding. Not about being your friend, just that I wasn’t really testing you.
And in case you were actually wondering, I’m not on medication. Not that I couldn’t use some most days : )
Oh, and I ate cheesecake last night. I figured that was an event worth an honorable mention. Just sayin’.
June 13th, 2008 at 11:41 am
Must’ve been a cake vibe in the air. I had chocolate cake last night. Oh, and this morning for breakfast. I’m drinking lots of water now so the sugar doesn’t “stick”. Heh, keep dreamin’, right?
Love how honest you are…how yourself you are. One of the most fab things about you. =)
June 13th, 2008 at 11:42 am
p.s. Our health food store has a probiotic pill (I think the brand is Udo’s?) that’s meant to control yeast overgrowth. Might be worth a try!
June 13th, 2008 at 12:06 pm
Oh, I’m glad you’re feeling better! I meant to comment the other day and I guess I didn’t manage to [blush]…sorry!
June 13th, 2008 at 1:01 pm
You are loved!
You know I’ll always have your back
Hugs!
Miss seeing ya!
L
June 13th, 2008 at 2:00 pm
And where did you eat “said” cheesecake? Just wondering cause I was at “my” cheesecake place last night around 10…
June 13th, 2008 at 3:58 pm
Mmm… Cheesecake. I cheated with cherry pie and ice cream last night. Must have been something in the air
*hugs!*
June 13th, 2008 at 6:36 pm
Im pleased your ok
May God take your past hurts and heal you
I did wonder whether Jer was being good on one hand I was saying to myself nah Jer is good on the other I wasnt sure
forgive me for doubting that great hubby of yours
Erin sweetheart I dont know what hurts were surfing but I am reading a real good book at the moment
God Loves Messy People – Bonnie Keen
Erin God LOVES you and so do I
it doesnt matter where we are or were God loves us
have a good weekend
HUGS
Jen
June 13th, 2008 at 11:52 pm
(((hugs)))