Fully Alive…Ready to Smile

posted by erin on Aug 13

So why is it not fun?  I haven’t been doing a lot of blogging lately because I’ve been a little emotionally and physically stressed.  I’m in a bit of a fog.  It just doesn’t make for very upbeat blogging!

The stress has been causing some pretty wicked tension in my neck and causing a doozer of a headache which in turn makes me feel more stressed.  It’s affecting my eyes, which causes more tension headaches from the strain.  It makes me restless when I lie down to sleep, so I don’t sleep too much, which causes more headaches from tiredness.  Then on top of all of that I got a nasty case of something akin to vertigo from being on the dock for too long at the lake and it has yet to recede.  I feel like I’m constantly on the dock, swaying and a little dizzy.  It’s causing a pretty unbalanced feeling and making my stomach feel queasy from the combined swaying feeling and headache.  The vertigo happened to me last year for the first time and it took many weeks for it to go away.  Yuck!  I’m not one to complain too much about my physical state because I’ve been much worse off, but enough is enough.

I went to see my naturopath today (who I’ve been seeing since I was diagnosed with Crohn’s 15 years ago and has helped my overcome many physical hurdles in my life) and she had a suggestion for me.  She recommended I go for CranioSacral Massage.  Sounds kind of spooky, doesn’t it?  I’m up for pretty much anything at this point because I’m living in zombie land.  I can hardly drag myself out of bed and that’s just no fun.  I’ve been for deep tissue and therapeutic massage in the last few months and nothing is helping.  So what can it hurt?  And hopefully it will help!  She also gave me some natural pills to help with relaxing (and sleep) and stress relief.  You know, I haven’t had an undisturbed night’s sleep in almost 6 years.  Can you imagine the havoc I could wreak on a good uninterrupted night of sleep?  : )

I’m hoping that this means that things will be looking up for me.  It’s worth a shot.  I feel completely unlike myself and it makes me sad.  So if you have a moment to send up a prayer that things will right themselves soonly, I’d really appreciate it : )